SOME WORDS ABOUT LOVE
By Sascha Förste
Very often during my daily activities I have experiences which make me think that I have to write about to all members of the church here on earth. I know it is a weakness of mine that I often wish to talk about my experiences, but on the other hand, there are stories written by other members which helped me very much while going through darker days. Telling the church members about the changing of my life by God's wonderful, tender help is all I can do for my church these days.
For all who don't know who this guy from Germany is, here is a short introduction. I am thirty years old and am married to a wonderful woman I've known now for more than half of my life. We have three kids of love who are five years, two years, and three months old. My wife and I are working as self-employed healers in a village near Nuremberg, in Bavaria.
Not long ago the Gospels of the Church of the New Birth found me while I was searching for hands-on healing techniques in the confusing world of healing of all cultures. Every technique is connected with the philosophy of the culture where it originates, and while you are doing the techniques and learning that they are working, you are often wondering about the dogmas behind them, because every dogma states that it is the only relevant dogma there is. And when the healing works, shouldn't the dogmas work, too?
At these times, I was often worried about my mental health, because everything was possible and there was no guarantee for doing the right thing. And while I was doing the healings, I learned more and more about the wounds and darkness of my own soul, so I tried to heal them. But the deeper I dived into my soul while doing hours and hours of meditation, the more darkness I found.
It was at this time that I first heard about the teachings of the Church of the New Birth. A friend of mine, doing yoga, found them on the Internet while searching for articles about love. He printed them and brought them to me with the words: "I found something about activating God's Love in your soul. I read everything, but I don't know what they mean--perhaps it can help you."
I read only parts of it, but there were so many so-called "truths" in my brain that I thought it must be another one of these messages without any usefulness to my daily life.
A couple of weeks later, I felt moved to look for these copies but didn't find them. After some tries, I found the web site and ordered some material from the church, including the first two volumes of TRUE GOSPEL REVEALED ANEW BY JESUS. This was the beginning of my own healing experience.
I began to pray with despair because I felt this would be my last attempt to search for God for a long time. I did not see any angels, or hear any voices, and do not, even at present; but I felt something really new--though nothing like what I thought "God experiences" must be.
At times I felt new emotions with such intensity that I began to lay aside psychological analysis and substitute it with faith--a change which was not often a pleasure in the beginning.
Sometimes I wished that somebody could press my "reset button" to start my brain anew to eliminate all the waste. And while living busy days full of action and work, I missed the things written down in the messages in the church volumes more and more, up to the time I realized that there probably would come no Heavenly happening in my life with trumpets and angels.
There came something better. I felt God's presence while working as I do every day--while buying bread at the baker's--while talking to my wife about some problems--while watching TV about some worldwide catastrophes--while doing nothing.
I realized changings in my thoughts, so that I could suddenly look at bad memories from a different point of view, which causes a sudden release of old pain and guilt. This was the time of the breaking up of the encrustations on my soul and the beginning of the consciousness of God's Love freeing my soul from sins and inharmonies.
Our lives now--of my family and myself--is a lived dream in reality, and my greatest problem now is how to live with the lack of fear, sorrows and rage, how to live with all the people in my life who don't understand how it feels when you are realizing that you are born anew. These are "problems" which HE will solve for me so softly, as HE did during the last months.
Living in and with the great LOVE of OUR FATHER'S SOUL is the only thing I want, because I now really know that HE will let all my other heartfelt wishes come true, so that love for my wife and my children will grow more every minute of my life--a thing which you can't explain to somebody who can't feel it.
May everybody who reads these lines feel the joy of GOD'S presence; may HIS LOVE be in every human heart here on earth and everywhere else, because it would be the simplest way to heartwarming thoughts on stormy days.
Whoever is reading this--I love you with brotherly love through the help of OUR FATHER, and I hope that this small effort to explain my emotions may help somebody and let all the members of our church know how attached I feel to them.
May the FATHER bless you with everything you need.
Your brother in Christ,
Sascha.